January 2010
when I make I’m sick noises with my nose.
its absolutely disgusting.
I do it in public places and wait for the people around me to cringe.
HAHA Fooled you!
I am one of the very rare people who actually walk faster than they run.
Am not joking. No marathons for me!
But really, in breaking news, despite being too sick to work out for the past two weeks, I woke up and:
ALL OF MY LEG MUSCLES ARE PULLED.
wtf.
Yes! I love the mysterious things that happen in the night! It’s like leading a double life I only see the biproducts of!
WOOPSFIGHTCLUBWOOPS.
I’m so tempted to leave city lights for liberty and just eat tons of dessert.
fattyfatfatfatfat.
I see them once and I meet them once, then I meet them again and again a billion times over.
Most of them are seniors, which means I’m seeing them now and I feel like, never again.
I feel kind of funny when I have bad days because everything going wrong all at one is kind of funny. I feel kind of funny of its fixable, and if idts beyond my control then I feel hysterically funny.
But today is not ano ut of control day. lt is just a funny one , and I am in my favorite coffeeshop right now while it rains outside with hot chocolate and a bagel and I’ll be here for a while.
I’m about too punch in myself in the face.
This is just… horrible.
Kill me.
I AGREE. at first I thought it had promise. , but oh my god. stop girl.
I almost drank a bug.
GROSSGROSSGROSSGROSSGROSS.
I hate dorm life a little bit.
it would be a grey crumbly corpse that is supposed to be rotting but isn’t because it is just in the mood to not do anything.
ENGLISH PAPER DUE IN 5 1/2 HOURS.
I’m not dead or starving in haiti. I’m not living at home. I’m just grumps.
Well you can be grumpy, and I’ll be bashful.
But I’m not short :(
But we can pretend!
haha thanks girl.
I’m short enough for the both of us, we could have like a tlc reality show.
I’m not dead or starving in haiti. I’m not living at home. I’m just grumps.
two actually.
well one is more of a friendship crush, he is just lovely. yes, yes for friendship. But the other, well that is a boy I like and its been a long time since I’ve liked a boy and I think its the first time I’ve met a boy who I can see myself with.
But I know not to get excited over things like this, I am sure he probs has a girlfriend, or maybe doesn’t like me, and maybe the thought to like me hasn’t occured to him, I don’t know. But he has bad acne and a really beautiful smile and I want him to appreciate me and sweep me off my feet. I want him to understand how good we’d be together.
jillian just texted me back. I feel very upset. I am just going to ignore her text. I am being illogical and emotional. I hope I just have my period.
I think its because I’m unhappy.
I am not often happy, in fact I think its my sole emotion sometimes because I never feel anything else besides complacency. thats not true, I guess I used to have alot more emotions and for awhile it was pretty exhausting especially after I read The Stranger and frequented the existential side of things. Then, one day, aeverything clicked and anger seemed stupid and I sort of stopped caring. Sometimes I”m sad, but often not. I am never angry. I am often dissatisfied, which is how I define just being so disheartedned and displeased with things but not passionately displeased.
I’m unhappy because I have to do work, and because jillian and daniel aren’t around and I’ve wanted them around all day. I’m unhappy because daniel is unhappy and I haven’t talked to him so I don’t know why and I’m unhappy because I have to give jillian a serious talking to but I don’t want to do that and I haven’t done that yet.
I guess I’m unhappy because I’m worried their mad at me, and because I don’t know what I want. What I mean is: I don’t know why I’m unhappy and I really need to talk to someone and jillian is ignoring me.
this is stupid.
my brain must look like uncooked ramen noodles right now. I just had two super intense hour and a half classes. blehblehbleh. let me figure out how to change my schedual stat.
freal.
fuck you chinese! fuck you even though its just the beginning of the semester!
my feet smell like buttery popcorn right now because I just took the shoes I stomped around india in off. they are super worn in and falling apart and the imprint of my feet is more than embedded in them.
lady lady lady. when did you come back?
(i used to be ‘sneezes’.)
oh hi!
I love the new name.
back from India: two days ago.
back in tumblworld:just now. I hope to stay!
my feet smell like buttery popcorn right now because I just took the shoes I stomped around india in off. they are super worn in and falling apart and the imprint of my feet is more than embedded in them.